Viruses

“Matt? Are they all gone?”
“No, Chris. You know they’ll never be gone.”
“I’m tired.”
“Go to sleep. I’ll make sure they don’t get you.”
My brother. He’s only six years old and doesn’t understand. Hell, I’m only nineteen and I barely understand. All I know is- you shoot and ask questions later. This isn’t the apocalypse. This is science gone wrong.
Only three months ago did the problem start. I remember sitting online reading about the new technology that was being tested. A technology that would allow humans to live forever.
“Did you hear that Matt?”
“No, Chris. I heard nothing. Go back to sleep.”
Tiny robots that acted like cells, but better. They’d go through your veins and clean out the bad cholesterol. They’d locate themselves where pain was and begin work on rebuilding whatever was broken. Your skin never got wrinkled. Your hair never got gray. It was a miracle breakthrough that everyone was going to live forever.
They made laws on how many people could be born. They relegated who could live and who could die. Right wing religious people didn’t want to live forever and refused the technology.
“There’s a rustling outside.”
“No there isn’t.”
Atheists jumped on the opportunity. Older people took it to look younger, and boy did they. You couldn’t tell my grandma was in her eighties afterwards. Most people looked like they were in their twenties or younger.
The whole world was just full of people in their twenties.
“I can’t sleep. I’m too hungry.”
“I’m hungry too. We’ll find something in the morning to eat.”
Gun violence became pointless. The body could anticipate where the bullet was going to hit and rebuild before the person was dead. They’d shield the bullet. Not to say that people didn’t die from guns- it was just less people. A gun to the head still meant you were dead. The brain was one of the few things that couldn’t be saved fast enough.
And a direct hit to the heart, you may come back to life. But it was unlikely. The technology just wasn’t fast enough to heal the heart like that.
And multiple wounds? You’re dead on the spot.
“I miss mom and dad.”
“Me too. But I’m sure they’re fine.”
“You think they’re alive?”
“I’m sure they are. And if not, then they’re with God and He’s taking care of them.”
But this was years ago. Three months ago is when the problem started. You see, what we didn’t realize was that robots are computers. And computers can get viruses. And viruses, well, they basically fuck you up really well.
And, if you didn’t guess it, someone made a virus. A religious nut that wanted people to die for using the tech. No one knows who it was, but he transferred it to a huge amount of people with some Bluetooth and hacks. A whole coffee shop just wound up dead on the floor. The robots destroying the people’s insides.
“How many more bullets do we have left?”
“Enough.”
And then someone else in France copied him. Walked right up to the Eiffel Tower and turned the thing on. Just walked away. It was the new form of terrorism. And it was easy.
But then some smartass in the government wanted to control criminals on death row by remote. So they made a virus and gave it to this serial killer. And guess what happened to him? He goes fucking crazy. The virus fucks up his ability to think. He attacks everything, bites the nurse who gave him the shot.
And then she gets infected with the virus and she starts going crazy and kills the serial killer and everyone in the room. And then starts to go on this rampage. Some religious nut gets a hold of the virus three months ago and spreads it downtown New York City.
“Enough to kill a hundred zombies?”
“They aren’t zombies. They’re just infected.”
And then we all became fucked. Even the religious nuts got fucked because they didn’t realize the infected people would just kill them by beating the shit out of ‘em.
“Mom and dad weren’t infected.”
“No. And neither are we.”
“I’m scared.”
“Me too, bud.”
And this is my apocalypse. Three months ago my family was fine. Now it’s just Chris and me, sitting in this basement, holding a shotgun and hoping for survival.
I know what you’re thinking- zombie movie. No. This is not a zombie movie. You see, zombies have traits that these virus infected people don’t have.
“Are you sure you didn’t hear the rustling outside?”
“I’m positive.”
First, zombies have a craving for human flesh. These people have a desire to destroy anything.
Zombies don’t attack each other. These people will attack anything. If there was a cute puppy out there it would be dead. They get distracted by loud toys fairly easily. Throw them something that makes noise and you can escape.
“Do you have anything to distract them with?”
“Your toys there. Throw them like we practiced.”
Zombies tend to have the ability to rip flesh off with their teeth. If you’ve never tried to rip off human flesh that’s still alive, you should know it’s a lot more difficult than it looks. Especially if they’re struggling. But the second they break skin, you’re fucked.
That’s because the infected have a problem with biting their lips. They want to destroy so badly they bite their own lips and constantly have blood there while attacking. Once they break your skin and one of those virus bots gets in, you’re now infected too.
“And they can’t get me by just looking at me?”
“No. They won’t get you if you look at them. They have to bite you.”
These infected also don’t look half bad. Zombies I tend to see as rotting and slow. You get a marathon runner infected, he won’t be slow. Thank God for guns.
“You think we need a better gun?”
“What do you mean?”
“Like a semi-automatic. One that can just go eh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh. That gun we have now wasn’t very good in my games.”
“It’ll be fine. Double-barrel shotguns work better in real life.”
The only way to kill the infected here are to shoot them in the head or watch as they fight each other. But I wouldn’t just stand in the open. For some reason they tend to stop fighting each other if someone not infected shows up. At least until you’re dead or infected too.
“So I throw the toy and then you shoot and then we run?”
“Only if there’s a lot of them. Only run if there’s a lot of them. And don’t touch the blood. Whatever you do don’t touch the blood.”
And what about us? Well, my parents were the religious type. Thank God. They thought it’d be good to not live forever. I on the other hand wanted to change that. My grandmother said she wanted to live for a bit longer to see Chris graduate and to see her great grandkids. She had control over when she would die, and she’d go when she was ready.
“What happens if I touch the blood?”
“You’ll get sick like they are.”
I liked that thought. When the virus broke, I was scheduled to get the robots. I was ready to live life without so much worry of death.
“And I’ll die?”
“Yes Chris. You’ll die.”
But I don’t have them. Neither does Chris. I don’t know what happens if an infected bites you, but we’re not taking a chance. The robots can’t multiply, but I wonder how many need to be inside before they can control you.
“I thought I needed to have the robots?”
“No. You’ll die. Now go back to sleep.”
“Don’t you hear the rustling?”
“There is no rustling. There’s no one outside. Go to sleep.”
“Cock the gun please.”
“Why?”
“Just in case I touch the blood.”
And that’s really the story. Just another day here in this virus-infected land.

"The Unknown" progress

I have not been able to update this for awhile, and I apologize. This summer I wrote more for The Unknown. There are now 4 stories total in the series that explain the entire story.

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Cute Girl. Nice Girl.

Cute girl. Nice girl. Let's talk to her. Get a name, share a name. Sure let's talk to her. Seems nice. Is nice. Good personality. Add online? Sure why not- at least she speaks to me.

Cute girl. Nice girl. Let's talk to her. Send her a nice message, see how she's doing. Doing great. Me too. Let's keep this going. Ask her out? Not yet- get to know her better.

Cute girl. Nice girl. Let's talk to her. Share some stuff, get some stuff. Got to know her better. Busy Friday? Too bad. Maybe some other time. Too busy? No sweat, I can wait it out.

Cute girl. Kind of a bitch. Let's talk to her anyways. Get blown off, get flirted with. Confusing messages. Ignored calls, ignored texts. What is wrong with you? Lead me on, fine I'll take it. But not for much longer.

Cute girl. Total bitch. What the fuck is wrong with you? Drag me along, all this time. What's the damn deal? Flirt first, then hate. How much more do I take? Enough of this. Done with you. Good-fuckin'-bye.

No girl. Nothing new. Lonely and depressed. Get hit on by lil girls, twelve year olds at best. No temptation, no inflation of things that I want to do. Oh well, too bad. What the hell is new?

No body. Nothing new. Still lonely and depressed. Friends just the same thing now, I can't deal with the rest. What to say, what to do, failing in the end. I guess I'll just have to like being the guy friend.

No body. Nothing new. At least I'm used to it. Some old things, some old shit- good to have that way. Consistency I guess I like, in every single day. I guess I'll just deal with it, until I change someway.

Some girl. Nothing new. Not going to do anything. Kinda cute, talks alright- but not my cup of tea. I'll be a friend, and in the end we'll be acquaintances. Probably best to not get close, to keep our distances.

OK girl. Nothing new. Kind of know her now. Good friends, I guess you'd say. Good to know- and how. She kinda flirts, but more with this jerk- but why do I even care? We're just friends, and that's how it'll be- I wouldn't even dare.

Cute girl. Nice girl. I had a change of heart. She needs a guy that treats her right, and I can play the part. I'll ask her out, it'll be fine- and that jerk can fuck the hell off. It'll be good, won't it now?

Cute girl. Weird girl. Always the damn same. Tells me she just wants to be friends, and wants no love game. What do I do in times like this? I just can't force myself to get pissed. I know it's wrong, but there's nothing I can do.

Cute girl. Friend though. Driving me insane. Stop flirting you fuckin' whore, I told you shit in- fuck the rhyme I don't care. Fuck this god damn scheme. Why do I keep doing this? I'm fuckin' going to shoot someone. God damn it. I'll never find a girl. Why the hell can't I just find a nice girl who is actually interested in me and is over the age of fucking 18? For fuckin' Christ's sake I can't do this shit anymore. I can't. I fuckin' can't. Fuck this. Fuck the rhyme. Fuck the scheme. Fuck women, girls, anything with a god damn vagina- big, small, fake- fuck them all and fuck their PMS bullshit and fuck it to hell. Fuck their tits. Fuck their pussy. Fuck it all.

Cute girl. Nice girl. Maybe it'll work?

For A Friend

Do you want the life I live? Do you think it'd be any better in someone else's shoes?

Would you rather be backstabbed numerous times by people you thought you could trust? Never being invited to things because no one thought to ask if you'd like to come, until you were on the verge of death? Being denied questioningly by your love, over and over again? Do you want my shoes?

Would you rather be in a field working day in day out with no pay? Your family is gone and dead, you have no friends- your friends are dead. Dying. Did they say to stop working? CRACK. See what I get for talking? For living? Being denied access to your love- because they don't want any babies around here. Too many to begin with. CRACK. Get back to work. Do you want my shoes?

Would you rather be on a bed every day with someone you thought you could trust over you, hurting you? The teddy bear the only thing to hold on to childhood. The drugs coming and going, the people coming and going, over top of you- coming, then going. There is no solitude, there is no peace, just the constant noise of the bed jerking, the money unrolling, the zipper's up and down. Do you want to suck on something that tastes like shit every day with no choice? Do you want my shoes?

Would you rather come home to empty bottles, a lifeless body that still breathes? One that never tells you 'hello' but only can muffle a 'get me another'. And that's only on your birthday. Would you rather be only known to counselors, because you come there so often trying to explain how the bruise was from hitting a door? Do you want my shoes?

Would you rather be afraid to come home because you heard two loud pops near your house the night before? Scraping by like rats, entertaining yourself with matches and rolled up paper, and the big man with a club will bust in any moment to beat you down and throw you away like a piece of trash. Do you want my shoes?

Would you rather walk outside, always having a high chance of hot metal piercing through you? Men on horseback, lit with vengeance, coming by every night to take more away with yellow and red. A hint of orange. But more red. Yelling at you, telling you, you should die for nothing you did and watching them cut off fingers of people because that's just how it works. It's an example to be made of. And if you move, there's the hot metal again. Do you want my shoes?

Would you rather eat what you can find in the forest, drink muddled water, and risk it all by living next to monkeys? Would you rather be so ill you couldn't walk, and when you beg to the rich people they just say 'nothing we can do' when they could? When they could do so much more if they just wanted to? Would you rather watch your six year old son dying outside next to a vulture, waiting for him? Do you want my shoes?

Would you rather be rich and famous? People gawking at you all the time. You couldn't go outside without a camera shoved into your face. Without a person yelling at you. No peace. No solitude. You make a mistake, and everyone knows about it. You can't even tell your parents what you've done wrong, it makes the papers before you could even dial the first number. It's too dangerous to drive, and your kids are meant to be superstars- even if you don't want them to. You want them to do what they want, not follow your footsteps. And love doesn't exist here, just a quickie marriage for publicity. Do you want my shoes?

Now I ask, do you want the life I live? Do you think it'd be any better in someone else's shoes?

The Story Told 1000 Times

I read about this girl once. She was five foot nine, weighed about 1000 pounds, and dear Jesus it was horrifying. I wondered what she'd taste like if they killed her and cooked her. Cutting off the fat would be hard, but I have a feeling it'd taste like McDonald's. French fried human meat, mmm.

I read about this guy once. He was seven foot ten, weighed more than me but was skinny, and dear Moses it was gruesome. Couldn't walk, fit in doorways, couldn't even go into some buildings because the ceiling was too low. I wondered if he'd constantly hit his head on the ceiling before so many times that he'd get a concussion. Bloody heads are delicious, mmm.

I read about this kid once. He was three foot six, weighed normal weight- but his face was, dear Lord Almighty, atrocious. Had gotten into a bad accident with a tractor trailer. Or a bulldozer. Don't remember. People would look at him, and make fun- and he was only seven...maybe twelve. Couldn't get into schools because he distracted classes too much, and his medical treatment became too important. Dragged him out of class. I wondered if he ever tore off a piece of him when he got hungry and ate it. Bulldozed baby face, mmm.

I read about this old man once. He was five foot four, weighed about a hundred pounds but probably less- and dear Joseph and Mary, it was dreadful. You could his ribs, and bones. Almost like he was a walking skeleton with a thin layer of skin. Had no hair, no teeth- and they even showed how his heartbeat could be seen through the skin. I wondered if he tasted like onions like old people smell like. Aged human with a onion twang, mmm.

I read about this baby once. It didn't say how big she was, but dear saintliness, was she weird looking. She had an eyeball on her palm, and one on her knee. She had hair all on her chest, and no eyes in her sockets or hair on her head. Like they transplanted it all there. They had no cure for her, but they tried operating on her- and she died of complications with the appendix rupturing. I wondered if the appendix exploding over the insides made her taste any different. Appendix soaked baby meat, mmm.

I told this story to some people once. It was about how I liked to try new things to eat. So they came over to my house and I took them to my basement. I showed them my cutting board and utensils, and dear Satan, was it ugly. Blood all over the place from the cows, the ducks, the chickens. I forgot to clean off my axe, my knives, my everything. They saw a moose head I stuffed and mounted, and asked what it tasted like. I told them it tasted like what they thought it would taste like, and they said "mmm".

I told them the story of me capturing the moose. It was a hunt in the woods nearby that I shot and killed it, and dear Buddha, was it foul. The body was torn to pieces by the shots I had to take, and little of the meat was left. But I was able to scrounge for what I could, and ate it. I told them it tasted exactly like I thought it would taste like, mmm.

They told me their story of wanting to try more foods. It was a strong desire from when they tried to go hunting and killed a deer, and by golly, was it gruesome. They told me about how they had shot the head by accident, the brains had splattered all over some concrete. I wondered what they'd taste like. Brains with a light seasoning of gravel and dirt, mmm.

Now I'll you the story of them trying something new. I offered them to try something new and they agreed. I grabbed them a hatchet, a knife- something sharp to cut with and gave it to each of them. I made them put their hands palm down on my cutting board. I made them chop down, practicing cutting. Told them to go faster. One of them accidentally cut off his finger. We quickly bandaged his hand, and put the finger on ice. I made a pot of hot water for tea. When he said he was fine, and had calmed down- had stopped bleeding- I put his finger in the pot. We tried it, but it didn't taste very good for was a health nut and we needed some fat in it. Boiled human finger with a side of fat, mmm.

Now that's what I call a meal.

What if...

March 11, 2012

Dear mom,

The camps aren’t so bad, as you’d expect. They have computers, just no Internet. And it’ll cost you a half of a sandwich to print anything out. But the guys here are nice, nicer than you’d expect. And at least the money I’m making will help the rest of you out. I just hate that I can’t speak any Chinese.
Classes are OK too- but I never thought high school would start out this way. Stuck working here, making toys for kids in the rest of the world. I wish I could meet a girl though, this camp is full of guys. I can’t believe I’m telling you this, but hey- who else am I going to tell, huh mom?
We get about a half hour a day to talk with each other. The guards don’t understand much English, so they yell at us in whatever it is they’re speaking. I don’t even know if it’s Chinese or Japanese or what. One guy told me we would have to learn their language soon to make it anywhere.
I got lucky though. My supervisor is new, and he seems to be more tolerant of errors. He speaks English too, used to be in my position. I just hope that I can get a promotion before I wind up dead from some disease. They tell us to stay away from the tent full of sick people.
I’d tell you more, but they sometimes read our letters and I don’t want to disobey their orders.
There’s talk of them giving us a TV, but only for videos they want to show us. Right now they show some type of Asian movie every Friday. Or Saturday. I’m not really sure of the date anymore. I kind of guessed when I wrote it on the top of the letter.
I do know it’s March at least. Weather tells us that it’s spring. And that means it’ll soon be summer and we’ll have to work all day and not worry about school too much. And we get to come visit our homes, if we can afford it. There’s talk of them making it a whole week without being fed to allow you to go home.
I hope you get the money I included. Tell David, he owes me one for his braces. Even if they’re huge and ugly. And tell the rest of the family I love them, and hope to see them soon. I really do.

Sincerely,

Greg










September 23, 2013

Dear John,

I can’t believe I’m handwriting a letter to you instead of email. This just seems such an old way to do things. But I just don’t have the money anymore for Internet. I can’t believe that stamps cost so much though! Almost a dollar just for one. I remember getting them for a lot less as a kid.
How have you been though? I think the last thing I told you was my Internet was getting cut off. Nothing new in my life really. Just having to work a lot, and I mean a lot. I’ve got three jobs now! All of them suck too. I just wish you were here so it’d be easier.
I still have my job as a waitress, but now I work weekends at a grocery store and the mornings as a receptionist. They don’t pay enough to keep me and my kid going, but I have to do something. I hope you can come visit soon, maybe even move here. I miss talking to you is all. And our phone is cut off too, but you knew that. It was cut off way before the Internet was lol.
I know we met on a dating website and all, but I feel like we really connected. There’s something that we just had, you know? It was special. And I just wish you could be here so I can experience that again. So we can!
I’m blabbering on now. I have to get going, I wish I could write more to you, tell you everything I feel but the people that keep coming in may see me writing this. I just have to get back to work.
Love you.

Sincerely,

Vanessa



















February 1, 2014

Dear Abbie,

Happy birthday sweetheart! I can’t believe you’re already five years old and starting school soon. Daddy wishes he could come back home, but you know he can’t. Not since all the bad men blame daddy for what’s going on now.
I’m going to see if you can’t come down here to visit daddy on the island here. Mommy knows which island it is, but we can’t tell you. The bad men might try to find you and kidnap you. And we wouldn’t want that.
Mommy told me you were going to start school soon. So make sure you be nice to the other kids, because they might not have the kind of things you have. Don’t go around telling them who your daddy is either, we wouldn’t want people to not like you because of me. If they ask, just tell them your daddy is always away on business and you don’t remember his first name.
Or tell them his name is Frank. Just Frank.
I know we’ve only talked a few times, but I love you Abbie. I wish things didn’t happen like they happened. I know Mommy might not read this to you, word for word, but know that with all my heart I really do love you. I just hate what I did. I made a mistake, and I hope you can forgive daddy for that.
I hope everyone can forgive daddy and that one day mommy and you and I can be together again. I miss you both so much. But what can you do when you’re at the top of a business and it’s going to crash anyways? It’s why you have what you have.
I know you don’t understand, and I don’t expect you to. Just understand that I love you, and miss you and want to see you very very soon.
Make sure you keep on feeding Mr. Gibbles. Mommy sent me a picture and he’s gotten so big! Just like you have.

Love,

Daddy